~I Quit!

Originally posted 25 Sep 2017

No, this is not the political rant that you were most likely expecting. I get it, the title and timing are a little misleading. Hmm, I guess it could be considered “click-bait”, but I started this before the events of this weekend. Well, if that is in fact why you came here feel free to stop reading now.

The other day on kik we were talking about smoking in my group and I had a “you used to smoke!? Me too! Did we just become best friends!?” moment. That moment reminded me that way back in Bucket List (Eight Update) I told you all that I had a pretty interesting smoking story for ya… So, here ya go!

I am one of the rare (stupid) smokers that didn’t pick up their first cigarette until after they were 18. Yep, that’s me. I grew up in a house where my mom smoked like a chimney. She only smoked in her bedroom and the bathroom but still, a non-smoker can smell that throughout the entire house. She would also occassionally smoke in the car with my sister and I. I HATE when I see people do this, that was a different time then (and, she’s my mom) so I cut her some slack when it comes to this.

My Dad on the other hand, grew up in a house with smokers as well. My paternal grandparents were regular smokers up until my grandfather had a heart attack, then they both dropped smoking like a bad cliche (see what I did there!?). Also, I’m pretty sure that he never smoked.

And then there’s yours truly. I have always disliked the smell of cigarettes. I started smoking Black and Milds when I was in training, they smelled so good. Then, as training progressed we were given cigarette breaks throughout the day. You cannot finish a black and mild in 5 minutes, you just can’t. It was frustrating how much money I lost on half smoked cigars (well, not really cigars, but you know what I mean). So, I randomly decided to try a cigarette. Then decided that I would smoke them during our breaks since I could actually finish them in that time. Then, they became all that I smoked. Still, I hated the smell.

Over the course of my 3 deployments I went through periods where I was smoking darn near 3 packs a day. Also over the course of my deployments I went through periods where I would try to quit, the longest I think I went was 3 months. Ok, so how did I finally end up kicking the habit?

It’s going to sound a little cheesy, but one random day, in Afghanistan, some random guy came came into my motor pool looking for someone who had never worked there. He was a talker. He ended up in the smoke pit, talking to me and a bunch of other Marines about how hard it was for him to quit smoking. This guy did patches, gum, shock therapy, hypnosis, and finally (what got him to stop) acupuncture, in his ears.

Everyone was in awe, and all I could think was “if it takes me getting stuck in the ear to quit I never will”. That day I decided to limit myself to one cig every evening. I figured that eventually my body would get used to it, and eventually I would be able to go without it. I also figured that as long as I was getting my nic-fix at night I wouldn’t go through the short tempered phase that people usually talk about. On that part I was wrong, but to my first point it worked like a charm.

I smoked one cig a day for almost two months then on my sisters birthday (unfortunately there isn’t a real correlation between the two) I stopped. Since then I’ve had zero cigarettes and two cigars (spaced a year apart), and felt like I was going to die while smoking both of them. I don’t really have a great ending for this one. I started smoking, smoked for 7 years, then quit. Ta-da!

Until next time, quit it!

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P.S. This is me on my first deployment, back when I had more hair on the top of my head than under my nose. Speaking of which, I just recently shaved off my mustache. Thats the second time that I’ve shaved it since my dad passed in 2013 (I’ll probably end up making a post about it… Eventually), I’m not sure how I feel about it. Oh yea, please excuse the pit stain.

18 Comments Add yours

  1. sarah wertheimer says:

    I started smoking in college and still smoke sporadically.
    Ive always smoked either socially or emotionally. (my friend calls it binge smoking)
    I might go weeks or months without a cigarette and then chain smoke 5. But smoking “a lot” for me still isnt very much compared to a lot of people. (like… 3 in a day is a lot for me… although right after my boyfriend died and for a period of time in July after I was in ER after something that fucked me up for a bit, Id get through a pack in 2 or 3 days, which i think is the most i ever smoked.)

    currently im back to mostly smoking socially. Ive never had a hard time not smoking (i know people have a hell of a time quitting, but ive never had actual cravings for them other than as a distraction and mildly destructive, since i quit everything else)

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    1. Sarah! I’ve missed your comments haha I’ve been a lazy blogger lately, I have to make my way over to your blog and check out your newer posts… It’s so weird to me when people (like myself) wait until they are of age to start smoking. However, I’m glad to see that I’m not alone in this haha I’m glad that you’re more of a social smoker than a regular

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    2. sarah wertheimer says:

      aw. thats nice. I’ve been a bit off the grid lately .i dont have a newer post yet but i’m working on one, so hopefully that will be posted soon.

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    3. It’s nice being off of the grid isn’t it? My phone died the other day and I just left it haha kinda nerve wrecking/kinda relieving. I’ll check back soon to check out your new posts

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    4. Sarah W says:

      😀 (That forced me to finally finish and post something, lol. I have so many drafts that “arent quite good enough” you wouldn’t believe)

      Being off the grid for a while can be good.
      A couple times when I’ve been away I pretty much told everyone I wouldnt have service etc. (which was mostly true). It’s kinda nice to have a break from everyone else’s demands and just be focused on where and when you are. Technology, with all its wonderful uses, does not make this easy.

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    5. Nice! I’ll go check it out… It’s nice when you legitimately are in the moment

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    6. Sarah W says:

      maybe my next post will be about being off the grid lol

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    7. Not a bad idea…..

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  2. Jad says:

    I started smoking when I was 9 years old then quit at age 40 within days of finding out my brother passed away! Don’t miss it and will never smoke again

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    1. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. And I’m glad that you kicked the habit and didn’t look back. I can’t count how many times I tried to quit before (I think 3 months was the longest) but since day one there was just something different about this last time, more conviction, it just seemed more absolute.

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    2. Jad says:

      I will never smoke again simply because I never want to go through quitting again!!

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  3. I started smoking for a boy – you know how it is, 13 “in love” with an older boy, hanging out all the time, you want to look cool, etc etc. It was such a bad choice. I smoked on and off, only around him and his friends (my main group), for about 2 years then quit. But when I get stressed out I still crave them. During university exam season it was always the worse. I’d have dreams I was smoking again and wake up with the worst cravings. Sometimes I cheat and have a puff but it’s been 15 years since my last full cigarette.

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    1. I actually did have a friend who started smoking when we were around 13, we kinda started to drift apart around that same time. Oh those dreams are no joke! Luckily I haven’t had one in a long time, but I still remember waking up in sweats after having one.

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    2. Ooh the dreams are certainly no joke!! I was like a 1-2 cigarette a day smoker at most. I don’t even want to imagine trying to quit from 3 packs a day 😰

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    3. Haha those were the days that we were on the road all day and/or all night. Smoking helped to keep us awake.

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    4. Oh, also, congrats on the 15 years! June was 5 for me.

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    5. Oo thanks!! And congrats to you too!!

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